Upward Trajectory

The last few weeks have been a very positive time for me. I had a difficult early portion of the semester, as I extrapolated upon last week. But, after a few watershed moments, I find myself on a path that is returning to the path God desires for me to follow. The key over the next few weeks will be to keep my momentum and keep myself moving in the direction I am hoping to move in. I find myself right now at a crossroads, and I can wait to see how all these unique convergent ideas, experiences, and people work together to form the experience of my Junior year.

Feeling Loved

After a weekend filled with conviction and spiritual aliveness like I haven't experienced in a long time I found myself carrying a great deal of spiritual and emotional momentum into this week. The love that God has for me burned inside in a way that I haven't experienced in a long time. I have been spiritually dead for the last few months. Before two weeks ago I had not attended a church service thus far this semester. Additionally, after church I was not feeling refreshed in the way that I was used to. Life was on a bit of a downward spiral and I was not treating those around me in the manner that I should. All of this came to a head over Homecoming weekend when I had the first major breakdown that I have had in nearly two years. During this time I acted in embarrassing fashion towards many people that I care a great deal about. I didn't sleep for a period of 60 hours or so, smoked a pack and a half of cigarettes and felt myself in a state of constant unrest and emptiness.

But, over the past few weeks with the help of some great friends and God I have found myself on the other side of the valley. I feel like after this weekend I'm nearing a mountain top experience. I am excited about some new relationships I have formed, and the place I am in with God. So, this week was looking to be a good one, until someone made it a great week today. I received a mailing today that was extremely encouraging and made me feel loved and truly cared about. It was a small gesture, but it has had immeasurable effect on my week and my psyche.

Musical Musings: The Great Headphone Mystery

The most common question I receive from my peers outside of "What is your name?" is without doubt "Why the big headphones?"

Now often times I have to remove my large auditory appendages from my ear and kindly as them to repeat the question, as I cannot hear much through the headphones if I wanted to. Additionally, when I have them on I become subsumed in the music pulsing through them and I can, if for just the briefest of moments, separate myself from all my stress and obligations and focus in on a collection of chords, voices, instruments and composition.

So, no..I am not trying to be rude, I love talking to people. But as we all do it is a way for me to cope, and often time a way for me to feel God, and to feel a sense of balance that can be so difficult to achieve.

Mystery: Solved

Some Nice Music

Since Music is in the title, I suppose is should share song. Here is a great young artist who I have been a fan of for a while, but was only able to identify him a few moments ago.

Here is a link to Ben Sollee's song "How to See the Sun Rise"




Also, the video is posted on my Facebook page.

I will sit down and compose something of greater interest later, but I don't have the time now, so I suppose I will talk to you all later!

My New Blog: A Fresh Start with Renewed Resolve and Purpose

Welcome one and all!

Hopefully I will be a bit more faithful with this blog than my last. The intent of this space is to foster discussion about life, music, film, and whatever else may come up in conversation. I intended to utilize this space as a place where I can transcribe feelings into text, and that will happen in a candid format, and I appreciate when that same open and honest conversation comes from those who respond and read my blogs. If you think I'm wrong..tell me, I like being challenged to prove my points, and like hearing the counter to points I make.

Please feel free to bring up subjects you would like to discuss or blogs you would like me to post or link to this page, I am a big fan of interconnectedness and would like to see this page become a crossroads where many different blogs, people and ideas can intersect and communicate.

That's all for this time as it is late and sleep seems a good idea!