Feeling Loved

After a weekend filled with conviction and spiritual aliveness like I haven't experienced in a long time I found myself carrying a great deal of spiritual and emotional momentum into this week. The love that God has for me burned inside in a way that I haven't experienced in a long time. I have been spiritually dead for the last few months. Before two weeks ago I had not attended a church service thus far this semester. Additionally, after church I was not feeling refreshed in the way that I was used to. Life was on a bit of a downward spiral and I was not treating those around me in the manner that I should. All of this came to a head over Homecoming weekend when I had the first major breakdown that I have had in nearly two years. During this time I acted in embarrassing fashion towards many people that I care a great deal about. I didn't sleep for a period of 60 hours or so, smoked a pack and a half of cigarettes and felt myself in a state of constant unrest and emptiness.

But, over the past few weeks with the help of some great friends and God I have found myself on the other side of the valley. I feel like after this weekend I'm nearing a mountain top experience. I am excited about some new relationships I have formed, and the place I am in with God. So, this week was looking to be a good one, until someone made it a great week today. I received a mailing today that was extremely encouraging and made me feel loved and truly cared about. It was a small gesture, but it has had immeasurable effect on my week and my psyche.

Musical Musings: The Great Headphone Mystery

The most common question I receive from my peers outside of "What is your name?" is without doubt "Why the big headphones?"

Now often times I have to remove my large auditory appendages from my ear and kindly as them to repeat the question, as I cannot hear much through the headphones if I wanted to. Additionally, when I have them on I become subsumed in the music pulsing through them and I can, if for just the briefest of moments, separate myself from all my stress and obligations and focus in on a collection of chords, voices, instruments and composition.

So, no..I am not trying to be rude, I love talking to people. But as we all do it is a way for me to cope, and often time a way for me to feel God, and to feel a sense of balance that can be so difficult to achieve.

Mystery: Solved

Some Nice Music

Since Music is in the title, I suppose is should share song. Here is a great young artist who I have been a fan of for a while, but was only able to identify him a few moments ago.

Here is a link to Ben Sollee's song "How to See the Sun Rise"




Also, the video is posted on my Facebook page.

I will sit down and compose something of greater interest later, but I don't have the time now, so I suppose I will talk to you all later!

My New Blog: A Fresh Start with Renewed Resolve and Purpose

Welcome one and all!

Hopefully I will be a bit more faithful with this blog than my last. The intent of this space is to foster discussion about life, music, film, and whatever else may come up in conversation. I intended to utilize this space as a place where I can transcribe feelings into text, and that will happen in a candid format, and I appreciate when that same open and honest conversation comes from those who respond and read my blogs. If you think I'm wrong..tell me, I like being challenged to prove my points, and like hearing the counter to points I make.

Please feel free to bring up subjects you would like to discuss or blogs you would like me to post or link to this page, I am a big fan of interconnectedness and would like to see this page become a crossroads where many different blogs, people and ideas can intersect and communicate.

That's all for this time as it is late and sleep seems a good idea!