Feeling Loved

After a weekend filled with conviction and spiritual aliveness like I haven't experienced in a long time I found myself carrying a great deal of spiritual and emotional momentum into this week. The love that God has for me burned inside in a way that I haven't experienced in a long time. I have been spiritually dead for the last few months. Before two weeks ago I had not attended a church service thus far this semester. Additionally, after church I was not feeling refreshed in the way that I was used to. Life was on a bit of a downward spiral and I was not treating those around me in the manner that I should. All of this came to a head over Homecoming weekend when I had the first major breakdown that I have had in nearly two years. During this time I acted in embarrassing fashion towards many people that I care a great deal about. I didn't sleep for a period of 60 hours or so, smoked a pack and a half of cigarettes and felt myself in a state of constant unrest and emptiness.

But, over the past few weeks with the help of some great friends and God I have found myself on the other side of the valley. I feel like after this weekend I'm nearing a mountain top experience. I am excited about some new relationships I have formed, and the place I am in with God. So, this week was looking to be a good one, until someone made it a great week today. I received a mailing today that was extremely encouraging and made me feel loved and truly cared about. It was a small gesture, but it has had immeasurable effect on my week and my psyche.